Introduction

Hi! My name is Megan, or B.T.A. (big tit asian), and a couple years ago my pictures were taken without my permission and posted on the NSFW Reddit channels r/jizzedtothis, r/collegesluts, and r/realasians. The pictures were captioned “Size of melons”, “Nice melons”, “This big tit asian lets cum to this slut”, “Her tits make me explode”, “Look at those jugs”, and “Would love to be between those”. It was a male friend from high school who told me about my pictures. Apparently, he heard about it from his cis-het-male friend group. I felt violated, fetishized, scared, used, disgusted, and ashamed. My male “friend” did not report the post, nor did he have any words of comfort, he said “Lol I’m not gonna lie there’s hella baddies on this page” and “Should have made ur insta private man, idk how to help you”. MEN. Greasy-horny-incel-reddit-4chan type mEN stripped me of my humanity and put me in a non-consensual sexual context, they internet raped me. And the MEN who were supposed to be my allies turned a blind eye. There was nothing I could do. There was no compensation. I felt so powerless and exposed, like I was STRAPPED DOWN SHIBARI STYLE and gagged with a sex toy for the VOYEURISTIC PLEASURE OF INTERNET MEN. I couldn’t even seek support from friends or family without being slut shamed. What’s even more infuriating is that this is not an isolated incident. I have been objectified under a thousand other contexts--and so has every other woman alive. It is a UNIVERSAL experience for women. WE LIVE IN A PATRIARCHY. WE LIVE AS OBJECTS OF DESIRE. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. IT GIVES ME ANXIETY. 

           

FUCk I was angry lol I hated feeling silenced. I didn’t know how to process it all. I still don’t. It made me feel like the only way I could take control of my sexual autonomy was to be overtly sexual and/or do sex work. Because then, at least I was sexual on my own terms. At least I would be compensated. I’m interested in the exchange of sex for money and power. I’m interested in the way the patriarchy affects young girls and how we think about sex. I’m interested in the way we empower women. I’m interested in feminism, who defines it, how it's defined, and why it's defined that way. I’m interested in the internet’s role in all of the above. I am using this project to SPEAK BACK TO THE PATRIARCHY. I am using this project to BE LOUD. This project will be performed on my personal instagram @yaomegan, utilizing this channel allows me to communicate and interact directly to the internet men who have wronged me, COERCIVELY placing them under the spotlight ALONGSIDE ME.

Anyway, if you wanna follow my journey, scroll through the following blog entries, while listening to the lil mixtape I made for you (on the right), and watch me perform my dares on my ig @yaomegan on the highlight "is typing... (https://www.instagram.com/s/aGlnaGxpZ2h0OjE3OTQxMDMwMDAwNDc1MTYy?story_media_id=2550471118792504155&igshid=ysq19kwg5cet__;!!LIr3w8kk_Xxm!8YSkIypSIhacijs303PEc9boRIuthhoIpVgT7F3wxHrRwjsmoz1GzW9roakDdhI$)"